The world became gray-ash-colored in my eyes the moment you left this world. Almost a year had passed since the day you left this world, yet I still remember it vividly. I still heard the cries and pain of my mother and aunt—your sisters, the way my mom bravely stood up and pray for your soul, the cries and tears in your cousin and nephew's eyes, my raging heartbeat, my trembling hands, and my tears.
I still remember your last message to me, "Can you sleep here?" You asked me knowing so damn well that I can't ever say no to your wishes. I still remember your last smile to me.
It's been 11 months and 1 week since you left this world, yet there's no day I never thought of you. I always think of you from morning to evening. We made so many memories that every time I eat some food we've eaten together, movies we've watched together and more, I always think of you and end up crying my eyes out.
The world became gray-ash-colored in my eyes the moment you left this world. You were the only person who believed in me despite my lack, you were the person who hugged me when you knew that I was not in the mood, and you were the person who always cheer on me. I've lost you now, and I don't have anyone now to congratulate me for my achievements and probably lost the person who kept on believing me.
The void you left in my heart seems impossible to fill, as no one else could ever take your place. I find solace in the memories we shared, holding onto them tightly as a reminder of the love and bond we had. Your presence may
be gone, but your spirit lives on in every moment of my life.
As I navigate through the days without you, I cling to the hope that one day the pain will lessen, and the memories will bring more smiles than tears. I long for the day when thoughts of you will bring warmth to my heart instead of aching sorrow. I yearn for the moment when I can look back on our time together with gratitude for the joy you brought into my life. Though the road to healing may be long and challenging, I hold onto the belief that with time, I will find peace and acceptance in your absence. I look forward to the day when I can honor your memory with a smile, knowing that you will always hold a special place in my heart.
I will forever love you, my second mom, tita, and my love.
